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When You are the One who Needs the Grace...

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"I'm sorry for..." I whisper into the eyes of someone trying to right a wrong.  A wrong that doesn't really have to do with me, but I want to fix it.  So badly.  It's a pattern.  A way for me to cope with people's anger, anxiety, or silence.  It's my go to. "I'm sorry for..." Even if I'm not the one even in the wrong.   It's been like a burden to me and also something that has caused a lot of dysfunction in my life.  A breeding ground for unbalanced relationships.   Why do I always feel guilty for things I didn't do?  Or maybe did do a long time ago but are already forgiven?   I've long wrestled this questions and recognize them on my soul as easily as I see the dark blue in my eyes or finger the scars on my hand.  I know those soul scars well.  I've always known them. From way back.  What guilt feels like when it is so deep seated its fused into your marrow.   I know whatever is the problem it seem…